kain tayo

"Kumain ka!"

Oo.

"Kumakain ka pa ba?"

Oo naman.

"Kainin mo 'toh... kumain ka pa. Ano bang nangyari sayo, bakit ganyan na hitsura mo?"

Oo... kakainin ko yan... sige, kakain pa ko... kakainin ko yan lahat.

I admittedly wanted to lose weight... but I did not intend to lose so much. Please give me and my heart some slack... I am trying my very best to be alright as soon as possible, but it's just the way my body copes.

"Hoy payatot!" Dad would come to me and gently massage my back. Hahahaha... I never dreamed that word will ever be associated with me. I can only wince. My dad's not liking it either. I think we all agree that I am better off looking porky.

" 'Tol, grabe ka... liit ng mukha mo. Nag mature tuloy hitsura mo... pataba ka na uli."

So every morning, before I leave for work, I eat what I can eat just like a pig... and take all the vitamins and supplements I can take... only to miss lunch over and over again.

It's a hard knocked life for me. I feel ugly when I am chubby and I look even worse when I get thin. I am just looking at the bright side... at least now I can pig out without worrying about gaining so much weight. It is thanks to my super stressful work that my body's metabolism had gone a bit hay wire. For now, I am just going to eat whenever I can.

I can just imagine what my dear friend would say... I'm probably gonna get the worst "tell off" of all time.

Hahaha... this will all pass. Didn't I tell you I will be better soon? Haayyy... I cannot even face the camera anymore. Lately, I don't feel like it because I look awful. So not like me.

'Pag pumayat pa 'ko grabe na ha. Ayaw kong pumayat ng sobra... kaya tara! Kain tayo. Kain tayo para sa'kin... kase natututo na ako. :)