how is he?

Sometimes even if you feel like the earth's turning in a whole new axis, you'd still find yourself craving for the world you thought was good for you, even if it never was.

How is he?

Krishna answers: I think he's okay. He's a nurse too. Just passed the NCLEX. He's having a hard time finding a suitable hospital in New York.

How is he?

Krishna answers: Maybe he's dead. *wicked giggle* I really have no idea. No news is good news. He's having the time of his life, I guess. *grins... wanting to stab the one who asked*

How is he?

Krishna answers: He's getting married next year. I don't know if he already proposed.

How is he?

Krishna answers: He's still fixing his broken heart. He isn't about to entrust himself to anyone but to himself. *i sigh... what is he, some kind of a male counterpart of me?... wishfully thinks... punishes myself for nourishing the thought.*

How is he?

Krishna answers: I don't know. I really do not care. *seriously and truthfully*

How is he?

Krishna answers: Do you miss him? You can get in touch with him through facebook. I don't have him inside my pocket. How should I know how he is?! *haha... uh-oh, Krish is giving the brush off*

How is he?

Krishna answers: *ignores the question* ... I am so bored. *pretends to not have heard the question*

How is he?

Krishna answers: Who is he?

How is he?

Krishna does not answer. * Oh Lord, please turn me into a bird so I can fly, fly away!*

How are you? Can we meet some time?

Krishna does not answer. * I don't need you to save me... rolls my eyes.*

Are you okay? 'Cause I feel that you are not...

Krishna answers: SO NOW YOU CARE?!!

Aaaaaahhhhh!!! Please, oh please! Leave me alone!!!

It all hurts just the same. :'(

Sometimes I feel it, most of the time I do not.

Tonight I am feeling it. I saw the moon tonight and I did not even shrug. I stared at it, dared for it to try and make me suffer... and it was not able to.

If truth be told, I do not miss anyone of the he's they asked about.

...but I am hurting just the same.

I have been celebrating the night away because my sister passed the ECE board exams. Hurray to finally having an engineer for a sister! :) *thank You Lord for giving me something to be happy about*

Now my world is spinning.

... and I cannot help but think how stupid I've become for not being able to answer the question: HOW IS HE?

SIGH... I was trying not to write the word sigh... coz it would just mean I am leaving it at that again.

My head is really spinning... and I am not really sure if I am really writing as of the moment, or I am just stuck in my dreams.

Oh please, oh please Lord...

The world I knew had long changed. I need to carry on. Please help me long for it not.