chad michael murray

" I don't wanna be anything rather than what I've been trying to be lately..."



Grabe! I'm going crazy over Chad Michael Murray! Hahaha... I'm so addicted to One Tree Hill.

I wonder what if feels like to have Lucas as my bestfriend... ang cute cute niya sobra!!!!!

I liked him too in Cinderella Story, he was the leading man and Hillary Duff was the leading lady. His eyes are smoldering... grabe! Baliw na talaga ko...

Next entry si George Eads naman. I was blown away by C.S.I. Las Vegas' finale last Wednesday. Cute ni Nick Stokes! Parang bata , nakakaawa!

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Tagged by Eloisa (again!)

5 Things that Calm me Down:

1. A good cry. I feel so much better after crying my heart out. Never mind the red and swollen eyes, at least I feel better inside.
2. A very long bath. I feel refreshed afterwards and I can think more clearly because my mind is more relaxed afterwards.
3. A glass of water. I think I am a polydipsiac (if there's such a word... i got it from polydipsia in anatomy...a term which means excessive drinking of water)... can't live without drinking water every now and then, especially when I'm in panic.
4. A pen flip. Everytime I feel nervous, I unconciously flip my pen. It helps me release all the nerves, and I feel calmer at the end...or so I would like to think.
5. A happy thought... like Harry Potter (just finished book six, I was heartbroken at the end but it's still great), or a piece of chocolate, or a nice song or poem. When I think of my happy thoughts, I tend to forget reality, and I become so much calmer.

I am tagging no one because don't know anyone else to tag... got only few blog buddies eh... hehe, can I tag Eloisa back?Sipag kase niya mag- tag e!

AFTER ME

After Me

The sky's a misty blue
and everywhere I go...
everywhere I turn...
the wind seem to blow right at me.

It's after me...it's after me.

It won't stop
until it has blown all my hurts away.
It won't stop
until I make it a part of me...
swhirling,seething,swivering and spinning.

The rain feels like steel on my skin
and everywhere I go...
everywhere I turn...
raindrops seem to deliberately hit my face.

They're after me... they're after me.

They won't stop
until they have washed all my hurts away.
They won't stop
until I make them a part of me...
cold,fierce,strong and ever flowing.

My eyes are like broken mirrors
and everwhere I look...
everywhere I turn...
visions of you seem to glide past and dance all around me.

You're after me... you're after me.

You won't stop
until you think you'd taken all my hurts away.
You won't stop
until I let you become a part of me once more...
solemn as the misty sky
harsh and playful sometimes like the wind
euphoric like the rain
refreshing and freezing like raindrops
and transparent like a thousand broken mirrors.

Am I to give in once more?

I thought I'll be going...
just going and going...

Am I to let you pass once again through my door?

glory box

Foolish Games
-Jewel-

You took your coat off
and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window
always felt I was outside
looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one
with dark eyes
and careless hair
You were fashionably sensitive
but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway
with nothing to say
besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice
In case you failed to see
This is my heart
bleeding before you
This is me down on my knees
These foolish games
are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in the morning
Smoking your cigarettes
talking over coffee
Your philosophies on art
Baroque moved you
You loved Mozart
and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar
You'd teach me of honest things
Things that were daring
things that were clean
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean
So I hid my soiled hands behind my back
Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me
think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn
Somebody more like myself
These foolish games
are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You took your coat off
and stood in the rain
you were always like that