namimiss kita pag summer break: for mcflirt...

Sigh...

I had written something about a dying flicker of that...

It stopped dying. Now, it's really dead.

And I'm here, telling myself I am just alright... but he's right. It's my head talking and not my heart.

Just don't wanna force myself into thinking too much. It just would not be fair.

SIGH...again... hahahaha!

I love messing things up. Maybe I'm too used to messing things up that's why when fate favors me one time and gives me the chance to make things right, I end up making it wrong.

He's probably right again. Maybe I haven't really moved on like what I believe...

Reasons?

Well... I moved on in the sense that I've forgiven him and that I've accepted we're not meant to be...

...but maybe...just maybe... I never forgot how hurt I've been and I'm scared, still scared that it might happen again. I moved on, forgetting the person, but I'm still living with the pain.

You realize these are all maybe's...

He's right... I should just let things happen... and I have to keep in mind what wonderwall always tell me: don't invest too much emotions.

Sigh... it's nothing really...

I had been selfish...maybe...

...and I miss him...maybe I miss him... I think I'm feeling that I'm missing him.

...it's really weird.

No more details diba? manghula ka kung sino mga him!hahaha!hay...

pure feelings

I am back to where I was before. A little stronger and decisive but perhaps more lonelier than I've ever been.

Loneliness?...it isn't such a threat anymore. Emptiness and I have become one. I've learned to live with it with my whole life, I've blended well with what is here and what is gone.

The only way he could have hurt me is if I give him the right. No rights were rendered, I gave him nothing to claim... It is the same for me... I have no joy, likewise any sorrow to gain.

Perhaps he never knew who he really was dealing with.

I am changing to a person I have never been before... the girl I was and had been, with or without him. He was so unfortunate for bumping into me during this unexpected transition.

Hahahaha...

No hurts my friend...just plain disbelief and amusement.

All that came to be?... just tells me... he is not the right one for me.

Pure feelings... no more details.