Few more restless days and nights.
In Bisaya, I would often say, "Kapoy, pero lingaw." In Tagalog: "Pagod, pero masaya."
The ride is sure not over, but heck yeah, what a journey it has been! I am a bit in a state of disbelief, because at last, we are nearing the culmination of our plans, nth years in the making!
Needless to say, I am grateful for having been given a chance to not think of work, at the moment. Rest did me good. I noticed my urticarial rash already subsided, it was worse last November, until the first two weeks of December. Not only that, my mouth sores that would not leave me alone, finally decided to disappear. I guess it's fair to say, I was really feeling stressed about my life, it had negatively affected my health, and it showed in my appearance. Haggardness to the highest level!
Like I said, this time of respite transformed me positively. My skin has gotten better, I haven't complained of headache or migraine for the past three weeks, and the feeling faint episodes became less.
SIGH. The good kind this time.
I know I should be sleeping because tomorrow will be another tiring day, but I haven't written anything for so long, and my fingers are in the mood to type away! I've been meaning to rave about my life, but some things got in the way. More significant things. ☺
Would you believe the Hubbybi is so passionate about getting our goals done? I would still ask him every now and then if he had changed his mind. His answer would always be straightforward. I am not, in any way, wanting assurance. I just don't want him to do something that he couldn't pour his whole heart into.
He doesn't talk too much, but in our case, he's the perfect example of actions speak louder than words. I feel bad for all the times he chose to be with me, even though he's tired, and would rather go to sleep. I would restrain myself too, and would convince him in between his days off, to take the time to rest, because I don't want him ending up sick.
The best part of this adventure, is that he's holding my hand through it all. There are times when we couldn't help but argue. To my surprise, I learned how to stretch my patience with him. He lets off steam, I stay cool as ice cream. Haha! Kidding aside, whatever and however he feels, he would not let go of my hand. Though he would be overwhelmed with worries, I would stay calm and reassure him, we will figure out a way to resolve our predicament. I would tell him things can always turn around. (Plus, I really don't like to get older than my actual age, and I don't want to stress myself out, because this is not work, and everything not related to work is always better. haha! )
I am deeply touched by the way his family is overly involved in our affairs too.
His mother is overseeing some vital matters as well. I honestly did not expect it from her. The way she calls me "'Nak, or anak" now, made up for all the hurt I felt, upon hearing from the grapevine, about what she said about me. Anyway, that was all in the past, what matters more is the present.
Love how his nephew jumps up and down every time he sees me. Like he's seen his favorite playmate. The first thing the little guy said upon seeing me was, "Tita Kriiiiiish! You're here! I miss you!" Melted my heart big time. Won the hearts of all my family members as well. Haha!
The meet and greet also went smoothly, thank God for that! His mother was worrying too much, and I felt she was trying to get a hold or feel of what was happening. It was a first for their family, so she did not know what to exactly say or do. Much to my delight, his siblings had a great time. They interacted with my crazy siblings, and all hell broke loose, in a good kind of way.
So many things already happened in just three weeks. We still have a lot to accomplish... then again, we only have to bear just a few more restless days and nights.
I still can't find the words to describe the way I feel. All I know is that, I am where I am meant to be.
Kapoy, pero lingaw. 💕
