the bitter escape

I would never... oh but I did. :'(

It would never... but it did.

He would never... oh, but he did... he did. :'(

No I have that stomach spasm again...

" But will my heart be broken, when the night meets the morning sun?"- Carole King

Where art thou forgiveness? Where art thou loyalty? Where art thou dignity?

What are you? The most desperate lonely person in the world?!!

:'(

reliving grey's quote

"The truth hurts that's why we lie."- meredith grey, grey's anatomy

Is that why people say I love you when they really don't? Is that why people say forever because it really means goodbye?

Today must have meant something... but this day of great importance is not for me to claim, just mine for me to be thankful for.

Then I don't want to believe, but I am believing. I don't want to break, but I am breaking.

Could it be?

"When all is said and done, I'll just be a spec in the galaxy." - david archuletta

Your galaxy. :'(

whirlwind

It's been a long time...

I didn't turn my back to the person I really am. It's just that sometimes... even if I don't like to accept it, I am blinded and I tend to overlook the chances that are laid out in front of me. Sometimes I fall down and I feel like life does not give me much of a choice, even if it always does.

Yeah... I've been kind of busy. I've been busy trying to live.

"Talking to myself and feeling old..." - carpenters

Because I do feel old. I've come a long way and yet I've still got a long way to go.

Sometimes I just like to hit my head with a hammer to perhaps knock some sense out of me... What am I doing with my life? :'(

Some days I'm all about positivity. Other days I spell misery. I must have a manic-depressive disorder! Again... what am I doing with my life?

Darn.

All I can think of is find another way to live. How? That I have to think about too.

All I really want is what you've been saying all along.

Suddenly everything about my life does not matter. It's all about the deepest desire of my heart.

Then I do, then I don't. I feel, I don't feel. Life is fair, life is unfair.

I am twisted!

I know my struggles and confusion would lead me to achieving my end goal. So now I got to be who I am now... then who knows tomorrow? Things might get better.

NO. I am certain of it. Things will be better.

"You know it's love when you dream, a monster just swallowed you up and you don't wanna be saved." - alisha's attic