Ang hirap ng may inaantay. Yun bang 'di mo alam kung kelan talaga darating... kung anong araw at kung anong oras.
Hindi naman sa pinangakuan ako... pero sinabi lang. Sabi sabi lang. Sapat na ba yon? Na maniwala ako sa sabi lang? Kapag ipinangako ba, iba mararamdaman ko tungkol sa pagaantay? Siguro. Kase pag may kasamang pangako, may panghahawakan ako. Hindi gaya nitong wala, hindi ko malaman ang dapat gawin. Kung dapat bang 'wag na lang ako maniwala, o umasa akong darating nga.
Mahirap kase yung pabigla bigla. Yun ngang alam mo kung kelan eksaktong darating, kakabahan ka pa e. Lalo naman yung biglaan. Masakit sa puso. Sa pagkakataong ito, ayaw ko mabigla. Gusto kong maging handa.
Ang dami ko kaseng inaantay. Hindi nauubos. Nakakapagod. Nakakatakot.
Wala naman akong magawa kundi mag-antay pa rin. Kainis.
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Friday, January 23, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
friends and heartaches
my mom was browsing through the channels late last night. she came upon the movie "separada" which starred maricel soriano and edu manzano. as it turned out, instead of sleeping early as planned, mom and i ended up sleeping at around 1 in the morning. we got so hooked!
the movie made me realize the value of true friends and how made up my mind is when it comes to dealing with all the "monsters" in my life. (those who know me well would know what i meant by monsters.hehe). maricel was an ordinary wife, with all the humane imperfections and edu was the jerky husband who cheated on her. he left his family to be with his very demanding mistress. i was so affected! if i were to meet a girl like that, i swear i would have to give her a slap in the face! hehe... like i said, i was super affected!
i tried hard to prevent myself from ranting and using all the bad words i was thinking of because i was watching with my mom. (well, i should try harder next time, i couldn't resist expressing nasty side comments.sorry, tao lang.) as the story went on, i couldn't help thinking about my own experiences with monsters as well. i don't need to be married to know how painful it is to be cheated on. i kept only to myself, the things i would do if i am to be placed in maricel's situation, and all the things i would say... and surprisingly, she said all the things i had in mind! i could also relate to the way she dealt with her broken heart. she turned to her friends, who, although had problems of their own, found ways to laugh her problems off. minus all the drinking, i have gotten over a heartbreak that way too. it made me realize how important real friends are. (i thought of T.A. and all the times that i became thankful i was born because i got to know them).
it was amusing... to see myself in someone else's face no matter how different our personalities and roles in life are. in a way, some of my friends' silly questions were answered. to the question, "would you give your ex-boyfriend another chance?"... answer: NO. he can't just leave me for someone else and come back anytime he feels like it. haha. i've never been so sure about it, but after last night, i was 1000% sure. it felt great! and once again, i've realized how wonderful life is because of my friends who shared all my pain. giving them my thanks wouldn't be enough to show how lucky i am to have them.
because i was once again inspired by my forever friends who helped me get through so many heartaches, i wanna share a wonderful quote about the therapeutic value of friends...
"as long as there are good friends who tap your back for all the cute and sweet concerns, heartbreak will just be an ant bite. "
true enough. that's why i am here...still single for more than three years, but not feeling lonely, happy just to be with me, content to be surrounded by the ones i love and by those who love me. :)
*love you t.a.! sa mga maaasim, comlec, wonderwall, gape, bea, hannah and mark, aizzicles and my family... thank you for making my life meaningful.lahat ng monsters sa mundo kaya kong talikuran basta nasa tabi ko kayo.*
the movie made me realize the value of true friends and how made up my mind is when it comes to dealing with all the "monsters" in my life. (those who know me well would know what i meant by monsters.hehe). maricel was an ordinary wife, with all the humane imperfections and edu was the jerky husband who cheated on her. he left his family to be with his very demanding mistress. i was so affected! if i were to meet a girl like that, i swear i would have to give her a slap in the face! hehe... like i said, i was super affected!
i tried hard to prevent myself from ranting and using all the bad words i was thinking of because i was watching with my mom. (well, i should try harder next time, i couldn't resist expressing nasty side comments.sorry, tao lang.) as the story went on, i couldn't help thinking about my own experiences with monsters as well. i don't need to be married to know how painful it is to be cheated on. i kept only to myself, the things i would do if i am to be placed in maricel's situation, and all the things i would say... and surprisingly, she said all the things i had in mind! i could also relate to the way she dealt with her broken heart. she turned to her friends, who, although had problems of their own, found ways to laugh her problems off. minus all the drinking, i have gotten over a heartbreak that way too. it made me realize how important real friends are. (i thought of T.A. and all the times that i became thankful i was born because i got to know them).
it was amusing... to see myself in someone else's face no matter how different our personalities and roles in life are. in a way, some of my friends' silly questions were answered. to the question, "would you give your ex-boyfriend another chance?"... answer: NO. he can't just leave me for someone else and come back anytime he feels like it. haha. i've never been so sure about it, but after last night, i was 1000% sure. it felt great! and once again, i've realized how wonderful life is because of my friends who shared all my pain. giving them my thanks wouldn't be enough to show how lucky i am to have them.
because i was once again inspired by my forever friends who helped me get through so many heartaches, i wanna share a wonderful quote about the therapeutic value of friends...
"as long as there are good friends who tap your back for all the cute and sweet concerns, heartbreak will just be an ant bite. "
true enough. that's why i am here...still single for more than three years, but not feeling lonely, happy just to be with me, content to be surrounded by the ones i love and by those who love me. :)
*love you t.a.! sa mga maaasim, comlec, wonderwall, gape, bea, hannah and mark, aizzicles and my family... thank you for making my life meaningful.lahat ng monsters sa mundo kaya kong talikuran basta nasa tabi ko kayo.*
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