still healing

Sigh... sana wala pa ring pasok ngayon,pero ganon talaga buhay...kailangang magpatuloy.

I was extremely happy last week... but my happiness didn't last long. I was feeling empty (again?!) this week. Ewan ko ba,it's so hard to get so used to everything you do. Everything is just a routine you have to go through, you can't find a meaning in what you do. One minute you want a simple life, next minute you want more... SIGH! Forgive me Lord for not being contented. I have everything I need and I still want more.

The week was sluggish. No, the week was fast, I don't know. I don't remember. Hahaha! I'm lost in myself. I hope I can find me again.

T.A. met again yesterday. It was fun hanging around with them as always...or am I just so hungry to not think of something or someone else? Dy was absent... I know why! Harhar! It's like I need to see them once in a while. I have become so dependent on them when it comes to comforting...but the sight of their faces also brings back memories... and I still get hurt just by seeing them. They remind me so much of him,pero like what the song the art of letting go says: I'm holding on to what I want most. Shuck... I gotta stop loving the pain. I wish I'd find myself soon. I hope I'd learn to love myself more.

By the wayz, we had another videoke session at Villa Honrade last Sunday night. It was fun! (Look at me now...my voice got lost in the wind,haha!) I wish living life was as easy as singing with the videoke machine...but it isn't.

Sigh...my next class is three hours away, how do I kill my ever boring time?

Sorry Lord for being so bitter...