Sigh... another unfruitful monday. I feel nothing... I don't know what to feel.
Yesterday, I had a blast. Our planning in Tagaytay worked out right for me, I wish I could stay there forever... talking silentlty to pineapple fields. I just hope that all our plans for the year would take place without so much violent comments on the part of the elders. Hahaha... we've been going through so much... I have been going through so much...
Lalalala...I am so out of words. I am not happy , but I am not sad either. Lord, I'm feeling empty again, I am so sorry. Forgive me Lord, for I woke up this morning feeling ungrateful for being alive. My life is so empty. It's like my soul has long died. I'm just so tired of being alone, I don't wanna feel lonely anymore, but the feeling comes creeping all over me each time.
I was able to talk with him last Saturday night. It was hilarious! He called because he just dreamt about me having another boyfriend! Wish ko lang! Harhar! If that was true, I bet I wouldn't feel as lonely as I am now. Hay... until now, he doesn't realize what he means to me. I have been so pathetic for so long, but that still wasn't enough for him to know it's impossible for me, as of now, to be in love or attracted to someone else. I guess life's just like that.
I am currently listening to Coldplay's "The Scientist"... he told me once he'd sing this song to me if I decide to break up with him. I think he forgot to sing this to me when I did weeks ago. Kalungkot naman 'tong kantang 'to...walang kasiguruhan.
Right now, I'm really looking forward for the day to end. I need to sleep badly.
=+++=+++=+++=
Unchanged
I walk on by
to the streets I alwalys knew.
Nothing has changed.
The gray pavement,
the withering lamp post,
the electric wires hanging low over the roofs.
My morning was the usual morning.
I walk on by alone,
feeling ungrateful for the day ahead of me.
Nothing has changed.
Summer has not yet come,
my face and hands
still feel the cold
as if it was still winter time.
I walk on by
trudging the path before me.
Nothing has changed.
And nothing will ever change
until you come around
and make me whole again.
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haha, topak na naman ako! ang drama, i write things when I don't know how I feel. Labo dude!
hah
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