Suddenly

Suddenly

I feel better now... suddenly, I just do.

He called last friday at dawn. Had he done it a month ago, I would have felt what I've always felt. I would have been jovial about it. But when he called, for the first time since I can remember, I actually felt numb about it. I didn't feel jubilant or excited, and I didn't feel hurt either.

How can I love while feeling numb at the same time?

I am glad that I'm not hurting that much anymore...but I can feel myself changing into someone who I wasn't before.

Suddenly... I don't know what I really feel anymore.