pathetic sentiments

pathetic sentiments

my friend and i had an oppurtunity to chat through yahoo messenger. We exchanged our hi's and hello's. She told me the changes in her life...she had broken off her relationship with her long time boyfriend. She had found someone better. I am happy for her, I really am. It's just that I couldn't help getting hurt because a similar thing happened to me recently...only, I wasn't the one who had found someone better, he did.

How can he be so weak? I am still asking that question up to now. He said he's sorry, but his apology is not enough to lessen the pain I'm feeling. I couldn't hate him for what he felt... he couldn't have helped it, just like what my friend felt. I couldn't hate them, could I?

We're still together, but I still am sulking in misery, although not obviously. I'm done breaking down in public and crying each night. I just couldn't get through the pain. I just couldn't get over the fact that he fell for someone else. How could he? When I've been loving him like forever? When I've been ignoring those who had try to come between us? When I've been trying hard to forget my loneliness? When I've been waiting for him to come back?How could he be so weak? I've been trying to be strong for him for years...

Pathetic...and I know that it's wrong to feel this way.I just don't have an idea how to stop it.