My morning definitely didn't start right. I woke up pretty late and I wasn't able to attend my first class. Sigh... nakakapanhinayang pero wala na akong magagawa. At least it really wasn't my intention to cut class.
I attended Life with the Lord's prayer meeting again last night. It was better than the first one I think. Although the sounds and music were missing... mas na feel ko lang 'yung prayer nung facilitator. I was touched talaga. After that, tambay muna kami nila Paula and Eloisa sa pickup ni Paula. Wala lang, chika lang and other stuffs. We ended up scaring each other out of our wits. We talked about ghosts, nightmares(I had a not so creepy one last Thursday) and things alike... and to think we're in front of the church! We left some time after all the people had already left. Wala lang, feel lang naming tumambay under the not so starlit sky.
It's so cold na talaga! Hahaha! I was shivering when I took a bath this morning! I was jumping like crazy when the water touched my head. Parang sumakit ulo ko sa lamig ng tubig! Grabe, christmas is really drawing near. Tuwing December lang talaga ako nilalamig ng ganito.
Jesher texted me this morning. I don't know what to feel. Syempre I felt relieved that he remembered me... wala lang, finally diba? I know it's wrong to feel this way pero I just don't feel special anymore. Sigh, maybe I just got tired of his reasons... that's all. A person can be busy naman talaga, pero you can give time for everything naman if you're willing to give time. How many seconds will it take to reply to a text message? Sigh... pero he's so busy that he couldn't even do a little thing such as that. Maybe I'm just not worth thinking about. Kaya nga I feel relieved everytime he makes me feel that I'm being missed... being remembered. Kase feel ko, I'm not that special anymore.
And that's the reason why I still cry. I know I had forgiven him for what he's done, pero I can't overcome this new feeling yet. It's worst than feeling lonely. It's like having my heart broken all over again.
Well... nagreply na lang ako through yahoo messenger... I sent an off-line message. Marereceive naman niya 'yon diba? I'm not trying to get not too attatched anymore, I know and God knows I won't be able to as of now... he's too special, it's just that I'm wishing he'd know how I feel everytime I text him and he doesn't reply. Kahit na 'lam ko na he won't be affected. Ewan ko ba, nalipat na yata sa 'kin yung paranoia niya nung nandito pa siya sa Pilipinas. Namiss ko tuloy yung dating siya...he's such a changed person. Pero kahit na he's so different now, I still love him for who he is. Kahit na I don't feel special anymore. Siguro paranoia lang din 'to. I'll just let it pass, maybe I'll be okay after a week or so.
I attended Life with the Lord's prayer meeting again last night. It was better than the first one I think. Although the sounds and music were missing... mas na feel ko lang 'yung prayer nung facilitator. I was touched talaga. After that, tambay muna kami nila Paula and Eloisa sa pickup ni Paula. Wala lang, chika lang and other stuffs. We ended up scaring each other out of our wits. We talked about ghosts, nightmares(I had a not so creepy one last Thursday) and things alike... and to think we're in front of the church! We left some time after all the people had already left. Wala lang, feel lang naming tumambay under the not so starlit sky.
It's so cold na talaga! Hahaha! I was shivering when I took a bath this morning! I was jumping like crazy when the water touched my head. Parang sumakit ulo ko sa lamig ng tubig! Grabe, christmas is really drawing near. Tuwing December lang talaga ako nilalamig ng ganito.
Jesher texted me this morning. I don't know what to feel. Syempre I felt relieved that he remembered me... wala lang, finally diba? I know it's wrong to feel this way pero I just don't feel special anymore. Sigh, maybe I just got tired of his reasons... that's all. A person can be busy naman talaga, pero you can give time for everything naman if you're willing to give time. How many seconds will it take to reply to a text message? Sigh... pero he's so busy that he couldn't even do a little thing such as that. Maybe I'm just not worth thinking about. Kaya nga I feel relieved everytime he makes me feel that I'm being missed... being remembered. Kase feel ko, I'm not that special anymore.
And that's the reason why I still cry. I know I had forgiven him for what he's done, pero I can't overcome this new feeling yet. It's worst than feeling lonely. It's like having my heart broken all over again.
Well... nagreply na lang ako through yahoo messenger... I sent an off-line message. Marereceive naman niya 'yon diba? I'm not trying to get not too attatched anymore, I know and God knows I won't be able to as of now... he's too special, it's just that I'm wishing he'd know how I feel everytime I text him and he doesn't reply. Kahit na 'lam ko na he won't be affected. Ewan ko ba, nalipat na yata sa 'kin yung paranoia niya nung nandito pa siya sa Pilipinas. Namiss ko tuloy yung dating siya...he's such a changed person. Pero kahit na he's so different now, I still love him for who he is. Kahit na I don't feel special anymore. Siguro paranoia lang din 'to. I'll just let it pass, maybe I'll be okay after a week or so.
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