in danger

"Remember when you said that you would change? ... Don't let me down..."

Wasn't it two summers ago when I can identify myself with Gwen Stefani's 4 in the morning?... That particular line hitting me right through the heart. I remember having to spend a few days at MCM delivery room for completion duty. I was content but not expecting. Then I'd go home late at night, dad would pick me up, and that song would play on the radio, and I would think of him. The tiring story went on and on.

SIGH... scary sigh this time.

I don't know what's with him. I don't know why I believe in him so much. Even before when I accepted the fact that he'll never be the man I almost want him to be with me, I never stopped believing he could change.

I know that there are some truths that I can only feel inside my heart. Maybe I do have a gift of seeing the better side of people despite their monstrosity. I have been warned that if I keep on being like this, I would end up hating the world.

There are no words for this. Time and again, I have heard people say that to explain something that they cannot explain. Now, I find myself saying the same thing.

There are no words for this.

All I know is that, I'm feeling the same feeling I felt before. Hopeful... and still not expecting.

SIGH... how selfless could I still be? I thought I have nothing left to give.

"And all I know is, you've got to give me everything, and nothing less coz you know I'd give you all of me."