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Sigh... so much with the thought of not being too attatched! I hate myself for letting myself feel this way!

I don't know why I choose to be so pathetic, but hey, I'm just like that. I view his profile in friendster each and everytime and I send him messages too. His status stated single, it used to say In a relationship and Married before... it even said updated profile. He just changed it! His status was married until yesterday. And here I am back to one of my pathetic paranoid phase. Why would he change it diba? And now here I am on the verge of tears again. I bet I never made him feel this way. Maybe I'm right, he doesn't love me as much as before. Why am I thinking of this?! Sigh... how can I stop being like this? And I thought I was successful about not being too attatched na! Who am I kidding?!

I just feel so unsure about us. God help me endure the pain... I don't wann feel hurt again. I don't like to go back to my crying nights. I'm really looking forward to that Life in the Spirit Seminar. Maybe I could learn how to stop being this pathetic after that. Sigh... God please give me the strength to hold back my tears!