I didn't turn my back to the person I really am. It's just that sometimes... even if I don't like to accept it, I am blinded and I tend to overlook the chances that are laid out in front of me. Sometimes I fall down and I feel like life does not give me much of a choice, even if it always does.
Yeah... I've been kind of busy. I've been busy trying to live.
"Talking to myself and feeling old..." - carpenters
Because I do feel old. I've come a long way and yet I've still got a long way to go.
Sometimes I just like to hit my head with a hammer to perhaps knock some sense out of me... What am I doing with my life? :'(
Some days I'm all about positivity. Other days I spell misery. I must have a manic-depressive disorder! Again... what am I doing with my life?
Darn.
All I can think of is find another way to live. How? That I have to think about too.
All I really want is what you've been saying all along.
Suddenly everything about my life does not matter. It's all about the deepest desire of my heart.
Then I do, then I don't. I feel, I don't feel. Life is fair, life is unfair.
I am twisted!
I know my struggles and confusion would lead me to achieving my end goal. So now I got to be who I am now... then who knows tomorrow? Things might get better.
NO. I am certain of it. Things will be better.
"You know it's love when you dream, a monster just swallowed you up and you don't wanna be saved." - alisha's attic
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