Searching for hope

I remember a time when a downhearted friend asked me, "Is it that bad to want something so badly?"

I remember the question... I do not remember what my answer was.

Maybe I said everything happens for a reason... Or maybe I quoted my favorite mantra: God's delays are not His denials.  Or maybe I replied, God will give it to you at the perfect time.

Right... so why when I find myself in a similar situation, I can't seem to convince myself about all my positive responses? :(

I am not brave enough to go to hell... my life feels like it's hell but people say it's even worse there.

I search for it under my chair... under the table... and almost everywhere. :(