I am not one who understands perfectly how electrocardiogram works... but in my mind, I can see what my ECG readings would look like at the moment.
Could ailing hearts ever find remedies through ECG?
Here's a not so comforting thought that always seemed to haunt me ever since i came to think about it...
That i always get left behind...
And that instead of a good reason why there's a need to wait...i might have been waiting in vain all along.
Or maybe i am just like everyone else. I want the same thing anyone would want.
Sigh...why all this gloom?
I fear being left behind again. I don't know if i would make it again. Everytime that happens,i am left with no choice but to make it. The pain is so tiring. I am not looking forward to feeling it again.;-(
Why am i like this? I'm in the middle of another struggle. When will i learn to love myself enough?...enough to believe that i will not get left behind and be forgotten.
"i am not one to complain..." oh i am not complaining.
This is a new revelation to me.
"... I love you more than i could ever promise."
And my repolarizations are abnormal than ever.
