everything and nothing at the same time

Of all the things I believed in...

So after trying to win over the struggles, I should have known it will still come to this. :'(

Tonight will be a long night... and so will be many nights after this. The thinking and pondering will seemingly come to no end.

This time... I would know how to get rid of all the whys. My heart already knew all of the "because"...

It still does not change the fact that I would rather want things to turn out the other way. :'(

You were the one I loved, the one thing that I tried to hold on to...

stretching p-a-t-i-e-n-c-e

So I found myself facing yet again, the unexpected.

I am contemplating very hard... if this unwanted emotion I am feeling emanates from a deep animosity towards myself... OR NOT. :)

You lack the big I. Intiative... Initiative!

I can't blame you for my mood swings... it's the freakin' hot weather. It must be the freakin' hot weather!

Tsk... better luck next time. I am the meanest when I am provoked. No kidding this time. :