brain damage

It's gotta be the brain, 'coz I have long accepted that my heart is dysfunctional.

"There are people, who say what you wanna hear. Even on a rainy day they'll tell you the sky is clear." -Brian Litrell

I don't know what to believe anymore. What's worse than having a malfunctioning heart? It's a super damaged brain. I am thinking but I cannot decide what to do.

My heart is just bursting with hurt. That is all I am feeling.

Like all I get from all my desolation... from all those pointless longings that had been the highlights of my days... are angry insights. Never mind that I said I love you. I am the villain... I deserve not to hear an "I love you back..."

Maybe I am really not made for this. I never get it right. :'(