notes to myself

• I only exist in my world.
• What I am, is all I am.
• I need to be more insensitive to what I hear and see.
• The less my mouth speaks, the less evil I say.
• If it is God's will that I do what He wants me to do from afar, then so shall be it.
• It is I who wastes my own time.

"Oh well... there's still tomorrow. Oh well... I'll try again."

That again. Every time I get some things wrong I keep singing that to myself.

No, It does not make things better, but I'd like to think all hope is not lost. That I am willing to try again and not give up although I really feel like it.

I don't think I can make it this December. I don't like to say that I can't even though it seems like I just did. Ang gulo ko noh?

Tsk, tsk...

I wonder when this will all end.

So tired of over thinking... and when my mind was flying and I was bracing myself while going up the stairs... haaayyy... an unlikey scenario.

• I am going to stop thinking.

Enough is enough.