slaps and blows

the blows keep on coming...

If this aren't clear signs, then I don't know what they are.

Yeah... I asked for it, and I got it.

Thank You's:

1. Thank God for letting me see the signs.
2. Thank God I felt the blows and slaps.
3. Thank God for letting me see the light.
4. Thank God I still have my heart with me.
5. Thank God I can still forgive.
6. Thank God I still have the courage to stand up again after tripping over.
7. Thank God for trying to heal my soul that just nearly died of humiliation.
8. Thank God I have friends to share my laughter and frustrations with.
9. Thank God for not making me fall so deep.
10. Thank God I still find reasons to be greatful and gracious when I have all the right to be bitter.

This is me... really getting tired, but trying to get on my feet after a disheartening fall.

Soon, I'll find, that everything that happened has a magical reason.

I'm keeping my faith...

That I will once again achieve that magical feeling... after I find out why he isn't meant for me.